Lost

Suddenly I am lost myself. I don't know what I want. I don't know what I should do. I don't even know what has been bothering myself ? And the worst is I just don't know what I have to think about ?

I just don't want to push myself, even while I am not able to think anything at all. Better for me to let it flow and let everything happen just they should be, naturally.

As long as it doesn't ruin my life. Or, it may have ruined my life if I was trying too hard to control anything. Hence, when I am feeling so unclear right now, it is okay.

Sometimes, while people feels so pain about theirs life, it makes them get difficulties how to escapes themselves and clean it up. Why ? Because they are not able to think anything clearly. Just like what I am feeling right now. While people get a trouble to find where their position are, so how can they solve the rest ? 

I am starting to feel queasy while I face this circumstances. See, even my body is reacting. It's so natural, isn't it ? Talking to my cats always the best part of it.

In fact, I was doing anything I hate. I was sleeping a lot during a day while I only sleep at night. Hope this suffer will over soon ...